We started off as everyone else would have. We started as friends. That friendship, though, grew fast. Soon we were best friends, and then we were inseparable. My thoughts toward you continued to change. I wanted to be more than friends, but I didn't want to ruin anything between us, so I kept to myself.
When I saw you, I would become excited. When we spoke to each other, my day would instantly brighten. You were everything I looked forward to every day. You were my obsession.
Then the day came when you asked me to be your girlfriend. I was shocked. How could someone like you, like someone like me? Of course, I said yes. I couldn't be happier.
You were what I always pictured as the perfect boyfriend. We would stay up late talking on the phone and sending each other cute text messages. You would give me things and tell me we were perfect for each other. It seemed like every word you said made me melt.
I think this made you take advantage over me. You were starting to change. I didn't like it. You started trying to make me do things I wasn't comfortable with. You were calling me names and walking over me. You didn't treat me equal. You even told me you weren't going to treat me equal. You said that you were better than me, and that you were in charge. I was afraid of you.
We got into many fights. You would always win though. When I wouldn't do something you want, you would threaten to break up with me. This went on for a while, until one day I just told you to do it. Just break up with me.
So you did. I never felt so alone. I obviously didn't really want you to break up with me, I was just mad. I missed you, but why? You were rude to me. I was nothing to you. You manipulated me frequently, sometimes multiple times a day. You never complimented me, but instead, would say things like, "Are you sure you want to go out looking like that?" or, "Those jeans make you look fat." So why did I miss you?
We started talking again. You asked me out again and I said yes. You didn't change though. Our fights continued. We broke up and got back together again many times. I didn't like what was happening to us.
This went on until I had made my decision. I didn't want to waste all my time on someone like you. I found out what it feels like to be treated well. I broke up with you, except this time I meant it. I didn't miss you. I didn't need you.
You have made me stronger and braver. You have made me a fully different person, and for that, I just want to say something.
Thank you.
- JESSSERZ
