My first kiss was when I was in kindergarten. Back then we were innocent, and didn't really know why we liked someone, but we just did. You liked a person for being nice to you and holding your hand. I do happen to remember my first crush, Brian. We were the cutest little things now that I look back on pictures. He was the type of boy who was all down in the mud dirty, and there I was in my little sun dress with a hat to match.
I remember the times we would play trucks in the sand box and my mother would always get mad at me for ruining my perfectly clean dress. And now that I think about it, it was sort of dumb to put a 5 year-old in a dress and expect nothing to get on it anyway. However I never really cared. We'd always do what you wanted to do: play blocks, dinosaurs, Spider-Man, you know it all. Anything I did with you, I enjoyed it. No matter how many stupid games you made me play.
As a year went by, I turned more into a girl, I suppose. I wanted to play with my barbies, and my baby dolls. And a boy like Brian didn't find playing house with me appealing. I always made him the husband, and I'd make him chicken in a pot with my fake kitchen set. After a while we both got into it, and it came to a point when he said he wanted you have a kid! So I remember being like, "Oh! Okay!" and grabbed one my baby dolls. I remember you telling me, "No," and then kissing me on the cheek so hard it hurt. I yelled at you, having no clue what you were trying to do.
I am now in my teenage years. I finally know that kissing someone on the cheek really hard is not going to make you have a kid. I also know that guys are going to want to play more games with your feelings than they will ever ask you to play dinosaurs in a sandbox.
Relationships are more complicated now, and there are more things you need to keep away from, and more things you need to be aware of. Now I know why girls and guys naturally are attracted to one another. There is also more pressure, more drama, more of everything. And not to mention you have school to worry on top of family issues, friends, and relationships. It's a lot on our shoulders.
If you have heard the song "Fifteen" by Taylor Swift, it's all true. You're in middle school thinking everything is fun to be with the guys. All you want to do is be popular and have lots of friends and boyfriends. But look at what is important. I was in your shoes. Family is who will always be there for you, no matter how much you yell at them. Don't forget to take care of any siblings, or at least help out your mother or father a bit with house chores.
Pay attention in school. Education is key for a successful life. Believe me, if I spent more time worried about school than any drama issues, I would have been way better off than I am now. Realize what you were put in school for. You weren't put in school for your friends.
I wrote this to just say things aren't and won't ever be as easy as they were in elementary school and in kindergarten. Things get harder, more complicated, and confusing. Just remember who you really are inside, and what your values are - and don't forget to do what you know is right. And when school is all over and done with, and you're marching out of your parents house to a home of your own, be proud of yourself! Because you just reached a new stage in life. Good luck.
