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Every morning in my school we go to different classes if we need anything from the teachers. This routine is called "Extra Help". And every morning, it's the same ol' thing -- my two best friends and I go everywhere together. So of course, when I went somewhere without them, it was a rare occasion that happens only a few times a month. So, when I did, without telling them, my friend asked, "Where were you during extra help?" And I just told her where I went. When she asked why, I simply said, "Because . . ." But inside, I was thinking something else. I was thinking that it was stupid that she was almost mad at me for not staying with them. It got me thinking, 'Why do we have to be joined to the hip? I am capable of going places without them.'
I realized that I didn't have to follow them wherever they went like a lost puppy. No, I was my own person. I have other friends besides them, and who's to say I can't hang out with them sometimes? No one, that's who.
But to be honest, my other friends are pretty few. Besides one or two people, they're just people I talk to when there's no one else in my class. But since I am my own person, I will try my hardest to start making more friends, talking to more people, and spending a few extra helps with them. I can think for myself, I can go where I want.
The only problem is, it's not so easy for me to make new friends. I've always kept a small group of good friends, and that was pretty much it. I don't really know many other people in the school, only those girls who I would never be friends with: those "popular" girls who think they're better than everyone because of their clothes and their looks. Although some of them actually aren't that pretty. Anyway, those are people I avoid. They're definitely off the list.
There's another group in my school, and they're nice. But I met them in the beginning of the year when I was invited to sit with them at lunch, and I knew almost immediately that these weren't my type of people.
And I don't really know anyone else. But I will try, truly try and work hard, to make new friends, and be my own person. I will think for myself and do what I want. I won't be my friends, I will be me. I am me.
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