Waking up so sick
What about my wish?
Why didn't it come true?
I can't deal with life, especially without you
I wanted to die so bad
Even though I know you'd be sad
You would feel guilty because you knew about my plan
But I tried to do it anyway, now I can barely stand
I can't take this, the misery
The torture and betrayal
Pain and sorrow, are all I know
I can't stand my life, I'm cold as snow
I want to be numb
but all I can feel
is the horrible worthlessness
that seems so real
I wanted it to work
I tried so hard this time to let go
But Life has me in its grip
It's too strong, I can't slip out of it
When will I get what I need
When will I be able to bleed
Will I ever be loved?
Or am I alone and stuck here for eternity