I washed out my brain
The other night
All the memories there
Just didn't feel right
There were negative thoughts
Negative feelings
All these dark signs
With all these cruel meanings
There were flashing red lights
Which I always ignored
They kept warning me of
The one I adored
There were harsh conversations
Never once shared aloud
There were strong, violent outbursts
Swirled within a dark cloud
There were many things
I should have done
All the internal battles
I should have won
Every second I wasted
Worrying
Over whether you'd stay
Or if you were leaving
Every ounce of confidence
I had ever possessed
All the motivational speeches
As I slowly digressed
Each time you did something
To intentionally hurt me
I told myself not to care
I whispered, "Please be happy,"
I thought of all the struggles
I've had 'cause of you
Of all the saddening days
You have put me through
I've pondered on why
You were able to kill
The person inside me
As if by my will
And I told myself
The fault was all mine
Then my vision blurred
To a dark, solid line
