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I don't know how to feel.
I raged, realized, wanted to cry, hurt, and relaxed.
I don't know what to feel.
How to push the hair behind my ear or tuck my shirt in the right way.
I don't know what to feel.
How not to be sad.
I don't know what to feel.
Self conscious all the time.
I don't know what to feel.
I am always nervous and anxious.
I don't know what to feel.
It ruins everything.
I don't know what to feel.
He makes me feel odd, does things to purposely make me irk, cringe.
I don't know what to feel.
I don't like him or it. Is it them, or me?
I don't know what to feel.
I patiently wait for answers.
I start to think I'm crazy sometimes.
I don't know what to feel.
The actions throbbing through my head.
I don't know what to feel.
Unrealistic thoughts of peace enter my mind and are quickly dismissed.
I don't know what to feel.
Living a life where you have no power.
I don't know what to feel.
The lies from you can be beautiful but the truth hurts me more.
Today, I don't know what to feel.
Author's Note: A written diary entry of a day where I didn't know what to feel, I was numb.
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