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I'm 18 years young and you're not around.
Its been 10 christmases without you. You haven't been found.
But then again, maybe you don't want to be, and that's okay too.
And though I hate what you did to me, I still love you.
So Dad, I'm going to tell you all about me.
Even though you'll never read this, I still wish you could see
All the little details you missed as I grew up.
Like my very first date, and when I first fell in love.
Dad, I wish you understood that even though you don't want me, I love you no matter what.
Even though you've got a new family.
You know what though? Sometimes I wonder Dad, if you even remember you have a daughter.
Or did I disappear from your memory more and more as I grew older?
Still, I want to tell you all about my life. How I graduated high school and am moving on with my life.
I want to tell you about my first heartbreak, how mom was mad, and how I cried.
I want to tell you about the boy, how he said he loved me but he lied.
I want to tell you that I forgive you. Even though what you did was cruel.
I want to tell you that I miss you. And one day I hope you miss me too.
I want to tell you that it's okay. That even though you have moved on, you've always got a place in my heart and you're welcome to come back home.
But Dad, I know you won't do it.
I know you won't apologize, or remember me, or us.
And I know you won't read this, and I know you never loved
Me like you should have, because I was Daddy's little girl.
I know you're not sorry, and I know you'll never be there.
And I just want to say that its okay.
I'm happy now.
And its all because you taught me how to fend for myself.
How to deal with hurt and pain.
And now I'm okay.
And I hope you are too, Dad.
Love always,
Your little girl.
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