Divorce. EW YUCK WOW. More than half of American adults are divorced from their first wife or husband. Does your tor- apart family help make the census? Mine does now.
Here's my story.
I was having a bad day. It was the first Friday since school had started. I had so much homework and I was really stressed and mad. I was telling my mom about it and she looked really sad. I asked her what was wrong and she said she had a headache. Five minutes later, she was laying down in her room. She looked sick, so I turned on a 'soothing sounds' CD (that came with a CD/alarm/radio clock I gave her for Christmas) and then I shut the door.
About an hour later, my dad came home. He said, "Honey, we need to have a family talk." I was like, "OK," and at first I thought he was going to tell us we were poor. He started the talk by saying that, "When people are young they fall in love. They get married and have kids. But sometimes people fall out of love," and then I knew it: he was divorcing my mom.
I started to cry. I hated him. He asked if I was mad at him and I said, rather, I yelled, yes! "I just don't love your mother anymore," he said. It breaks my heart that my dad would do this. I never heard them fight. My dad was just always gone. I should have realized what was happening. But I didn't.
I hate my dad. He's being selfish. He hurt my mom. He hurt me. He doesn't see me very often. He "claims" he doesn't know my birthday, but I think this is just a form of irritating me. He yells at me sometimes. He embarrasses me. He's SELFISH!
I feel so bad for my mom. She's upset because dad doesn't love her anymore. She feels useless, unappreciated, unloved. She cries a lot. She's lost a LOT of weight.
But still, she's being selfish, too. She is so self-absorbed right now, and I understand why. But still, I have a brother and a sister, too. THEY ALWAYS COME FIRST. It bugs the living you-know-what out of me. It makes me sad, too, because then I feel unloved and unappreciated, neglected, tossed aside. But, still. I'M HURTING TOO!
Everyone is being selfish. Including me. My sister is the biggest BUTTHEAD EVER! She is snotty, mean, and snaps at everyone. She covers her ears and sings LA LA LA LA LA LA when I try to talk to her sometimes. My mom was just in here and said my sister just broke down crying on the way to her friend's house. Mom says she's hurting. I know she is, but still. She is hurting, too, and I love her, but she can be a big pain in my you-know-where!
My brother is too young to understand. My mom said she's going to do everything she can to make us a happy family, money or no money. So don't be surprised if I don't get on to Whyville for a long time.
My dad is SELFISH SELFISH SELFISH. I just want to punch him in the face sometimes. Kick him where it counts. Grrr.... But what hurts me a lot is to see my mom cry. How can my dad not love someone as sweet, fun, beautiful and as intelligent as her?
Guys and girls, I'm here for you. If you need me I'm here. If you need a friend, y-mail me. I'll talk to ANYONE! I'm serious because I KNOW what you are going through. I'll talk you through it. Or if this has happened to you, maybe you can help me.
LOVE,
ME
