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So many things have happened this year, and I am oblivious to
many of them when I look back. I recently came to the realization that not
everything will be the same anymore -- times are changing -- and things will be
noticeably different from now on....
I am not the same person who I was some two, four, or even ten years ago. I have
changed and manipulated myself to accommodate the mobile world. I remember when
everything seemed so logical and easy, like 1+1=2 or "I before E except after
C". Life is no longer that lucid. I realize that, when looking around
myself.
This is the last year that my sister will stay at home before leaving for
University in the fall. She is a year older than myself... but I still consider
her my best friend. We not only share in common a birth parent, but also similar
interests, states of mind, mannerisms, friends -- all of the attributes that
make two people inseparable companions. I now understand that she will not be
there anymore, and although she will be only a few hours away, everything will
seem different and the house will be quieter....
When I was younger, I used to visit my Grandma every weekend. Some of you may
relate to my ideology that there is one person (or many people) whom you love
more than anyone in this world. Although you have several people whom you adore
and consider yourself close with, there is one person who stands out in your
mind. My Grandma was that person for me. Ever since I could recall, she lived in
the same house since I was born and that helped me to distinguish everything
that was related to "Grandma". Now that time has progressed, things have changed
and will never be the same. She now has moved to an apartment where she will
have more easy access, and although I am happy for her, it is sad to yearn for
the olden days. They were a time where you could find comfort, security, and
warmth.
You many not even be aware, but the lives of the people around you may be
changing as well. For example, the students at my co-op placement where I teach
may have their school close, come the new school year. This means that the
classes will be divided into thirds and send to nearby schools. No longer will
they see the familiar faces of their classmates, but struggle to meet new people
and create new friendships, due to the closure of their school. Although this is
something that is not fair, it can be done.
So I ask you, why do times have to change? Why can't the past and everything
that it represents comfort us? It may be true that a large majority of me is
anticipating the future and being able to live on my own, become more
independent, and strive to achieve more. However, a small part of me hates to
leave behind the old memories, friends, and attitudes.
It is funny how when you are a kid, you wish of dreaming up and being an adult.
However, when you are an adult and reaching independence, you long for the old
familiar faces and the comfort of the past....
Highway One,
-TIKE
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