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Do you ever feel like you just don't belong? Do you ever wish that you can comprehend how certain people think? I do. I do all the time. I know it's not healthy; I know it's not right - yet, I can't help but to blankly stare out the car window trying to imagine myself living the life others do. You see, the other day, my mother and I were invited to some VERY old friend's house . . . well, they are more like acquaintances now, but friends nonetheless. They live in this beautiful house with beautiful cars for beautiful people; I felt as though I stuck out like a sore thumb.
We were greeted by the aroma of Lysol and tangerines as we walked through their front door. I put on the best fake smile I have as I hugged each member of their very large family. I sat down and ate some of the cake they bought at their nearest market as I continued to give a phony smile. They all laughed at things that weren't funny, they were so happy - they just kept laughing and laughing for God knows why . . . but I have to give them credit, they WERE laughing as they were going through a catastrophe! You see, they weren't sure if their new Mercedes was going to seat seven or eight; the funny part is, I'm not joking - that was their biggest crisis.
I don't mean to sound cruel or anything like that, I mean, who am I to complain about another's happiness? It's just . . . It's just, I WANT to be able to laugh at things that aren't funny and I WISH I could contemplate about whether or not my new Mercedes is going to seat eight people and I KNOW that my constant wishing and wanting is considered a sin, yet I cannot help it. Call me a terrible person - I cannot help it.
Answer me this, why must I look at the glass half empty? I might as well be the luckiest person on Earth . . . Do you even know how many starving children there are? What about homeless people? How about those who have lost someone they love very much? Those dying of a disease? Do you even know? Do I even know? We will always wish and want to be someone different . . . it's human nature; let's change that nature. I'm going to make it a point to not wish I were someone else because the truth is, I am so lucky, the truth is, YOU are so lucky.
Luck is a four letter word,
Ushersg
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